The day grew more sentimental during the time we spent together today. I didn't cry anymore but looking at her made me long for my own child. She's sweetness personified. Everything she said brought a smile or a chuckle. When we drove past the cemetery she pointed out how when people pass they get to be close to God. This was said after I stated I didn't like cemetery's. When we went Christmas shopping she pointed out how she had to get the perfect gifts for her brothers. When we sat down to eat, she stated that her mother was her favorite person. Listening to her talk about the things that mattered to her was a blessing for me. I may never get to be a mom but I know that I'm blessed to have her and her siblings in my life. Not only that, I'm going to be an Aunt next month and that too brings me joy.
So, although the tears fall from time to time and sadness fills my heart I know that there is so much love around me to sustain the rest of my days. Today, that little girl, my best friends daughter reminded me of how blessed I am. Watching her get her nails done and listening to her talk about life meant so much to me. And who knows maybe I was meant to read that article featuring Sandra Bullock. Only God know what my future holds. But...I know that I have so much love to give and I'm grateful for those that accept it from me.