I ran to my car and cried, guttural sounds emanated and I couldn’t believe it.
I gripped the steering wheel and prayed.
I prayed for you and I prayed for me.
I thought about how I said goodbye alone.
I fell into a selfish place and then shook my head.
It’s not about me.
Goodbye sweet Fella.
I went to bed early.
I figured I’d dream about you running on the beach.
I thought there would be parts of the dream where you bundled yourself up in a blanket.
In my dreams I thought I’d see you eating and sniffing.
Maybe in my dreams I’d see you scare away big dogs.
But I didn’t dream of you.
I’m left with memories good ones galore.
You filled a hole I didn’t even know was empty.
I’m sad you were abandoned but grateful you became mine.
Although you’re now gone I believe your pain is too.
Until we meet again sweet Fella Rest In Peace.