I have to go back to that question of seeking approval from those people who don’t respect it. Just because someone doesn’t openly express a viewpoint on you or your actions doesn’t mean they don’t have one or even respect you for that matter. It isn’t the job of others to reinforce the good feelings you may have about yourself. Why spend time ruminating about the how comes of others? Instead, maybe pat yourself on the back and praise yourself. It’s easier said than done…I know. This has always been my problem. For example, about a week ago I posted a picture on Facebook that my mom then shared on her wall. When I logged back into the site later, I noticed that she had way more likes than I did. I immediately felt hurt. Half of the people that liked her picture were my fb friends too. But, why like her share over my original? What was it about her that they said I’m gonna like this one instead. It’s crazy how something so small can become a major factor in your day. Instead of relishing in the beauty of my mother co signing on what I put into the world, I crossed my arms, stomped my feet and threw an internal hissy fit that others “liked” it on her page more than mine. I mean really?
So, when I think about seeking that approval, it’s not that the person we want it from doesn’t respect it. That shouldn't be the question. Instead, its essential to focus on the why you want the approval regardless of who you want it from. The from isn’t important, the why is. I can sit and think to myself maybe it stems from my insecurity. At this point in my life I can make a million guesses as to the origination but that too isn’t important. The key is to appreciate my qualities, my gifts and what I have to offer. I need to be the audience that is applauding. I need to be the critic giving a thumbs up. I Tamieka Adrienne Blair need to be the one shouting good job. As long as I am happy with my work the opinions of others won’t become an overall dominating factor in my life.