Yesterday I had a revelation about my life. A few minutes ago, I became fully aware!! I've allowed a man who "hurt my feelings" over the spring to completely disrupt the normal pattern of my dreams. The fact that his disloyal, unapologetic, shameful, disgusting and hurtful behavior led me to regress in following my desires speaks volumes. Today, like so many days prior I asked myself "what are you doing Tamieka?". The difference is that right after asking myself that I thought, CHANGE!! You've been a fighter your whole damn life. Why not now? Fear? Insecurity? Those traits never stopped me before. It's weird because I believe that in allowing someone else's action to determine how I've been living I actually stopped living in some ways. This has been an extremly crazy year. My 40th. I've come to many realizations about life and more importantly about myself. I've learned to not get so wrapped up in what others are and are not doing for me. I've learned to accept the things I have no control over. I've learned to step out on faith and try new things. But most importantly, I've learned to sit in complete silence and listen to me. So today, I'm getting out of my way and I'm going to work harder than ever to go after the things and the life that I want. If not me, then who? Ok, I'll start tomorrow....it's raining like hell right now, only thing I'm gonna do right now is chill. But tomorrow....ohhhhh yeah!!~ |
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AuthorMy name is Tamieka Blair and I live on Long Island in New York. I write, I read, I write, I work, I write, I support..I WRITE!!! Archives
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