Today, I had a bit of a pity party. While out for lunch with my best friend I went on a 20 minute WHY ME? rant!! Why am I still dealing with molestation 35 years later, why am I single, why do I have no children, why is work frustrating, why am I still driving a beat up car, why am I always broke WHY WHY WHY???? I honestly feel bad that I subjected my friend to my irrational mood during a time that was supposed to be carefree and delightful!!! Driving all the way home with the windows down and the radio off, I took time to reflect on what I was feeling. I won't say that I had this magnificent revelation but what I did realize yet again is that I'm here and I've survived. Sometimes in life, we don't always get the things we want. Rather, we are given things that will enable us to grow stronger as individuals. It's easy for me to focus on the why's with a negative spin attached to it. The better thing to do is to focus on the WOW's!! Here I am 40 years old, surrounded by the love of my family my dog Fella and my friends. Yeah, there are things I want but all I need is right in front of me. As I type this, it's becoming more and more clear. I know that the path that lies ahead of me will be filled with dark spots and bright ones. I will pass through things that can harm me and things that will warm my soul. I don't know what's at the other end of that path, but I have faith and confidence that it will contribute to making me a better person and finding the joy, and just due that I've always prayed for. So if like me you had a moment or moments of despair, it's ok. Once the pity party is over, pick yourself up and remember that the journey isn't over and greatness lies ahead....... btw...shout out to Marisa, thanks for always being my sounding board homey, I luh ya ;-) |
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AuthorMy name is Tamieka Blair and I live on Long Island in New York. I write, I read, I write, I work, I write, I support..I WRITE!!! Archives
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