Damn, is this it? When I broke off my engagement a few years ago, did I completely throw away my chance of conquering my fear? A few months ago when I found out the guy I was seeing was in fact married with kids did that signal the inevitability of my future? Will I forever walk this earth a single woman searching for the happiness found in a loving partnership? It's something I think about and something I really do fear.
It would be easy for me to blame so many things for my fear. But, rather than constantly come up with reasons why, I'd prefer to bypass to the conquering. People that have tangible fears can often be forced to address it. I just wonder if my particular brand of fear is one that will be hard in trying to overcome. I've dated, I've shared and I've cared but there's something that seems to always get in the way. At this point though, I need answers. Therapy can be of assistance yes, but then what? How do I let go and let God?