Why? Like really?!!!
Why would I ruminate on something that simply was putting me in a negative space? I am so thankful for my mother, Uncle Brian, Aunt Lynn, Aunt Pam, Cousin Yolanda, Cousin Natisha and Uncle Eric more than they could ever know. Yet, I spent my energy thinking about who chose not to look for me and who I was not spending the day with. How stupid!!!! How could I not appreciate the joy and laughter that my family provides me with? How can I not look forward to badminton, backgammon and or phase 10? How could I forget how great it feels to be washing my car alongside my family members on a hot day where the water against my skin is heavenly? On the 4th of July, how could I not be grateful for the chicken, ribs, burgers, hot dogs, potato salad and so much more that was prepared with love? How could I not relish in the joy I get when I see my uncle setting off fireworks and all of the neighborhood kids come to our family home to sit and enjoy the show?
Really? What’s wrong with me?
So, as I sit on the porch and type out these words I reflect on what family means to me. I reflect on what love means to me. I am reminded that sometimes we take for granted what is right in front of you. Although today is about remembering the birth of American Independence, I sit in a space where I recognize that I don’t ever want to be independent of my family. I don’t ever want to think that I am alone, because the fact of the matter is I’m not. I am blessed with funny, caring, supportive and inclusive family members and its damn time I keep that at the forefront of my brain when I begin to question the why’s of others. So, as you sit amongst your friends and family, take a moment to bask in the blessing. Take a moment to think about what it might feel llike being independent of them. Take a moment to say
Happy Fourth of July!!!